Aza told me he wanted a break from raiding, and I know that a few people would like a break. Sev is already on a break, and HK told me he was hoping for a break, Last night when I asked people what they wanted to do 5 people said they were happy to extend, but Morz said if we don't get it this week then call it quits after that and have a break.
We had a good attempt last Thursday, with a 4% wipe on the last Paragon. If we can get there again we can do it I think. It would probably be really good for raiding morale too, I think.
I don't want to force anyone to raid, but I don't want to stop raiding. I am happy to just have a break if that's what they want, and let those guildies who still want to raid go PuG our raiding elsewhere. There must be some teams trying to make mythic groups come 6.0 who would need some decent players.
Aza was getting his Garrosh kill done, and Luxy also said she would get hers done elsewhere as well, since we weren't going to do it. I thought about whether I would want to do that. I think I also felt a little bummed because at the end of this expansion we had not downed the end boss, unlike WotLK and Cataclysm. Is the content harder? Are we not as good players this time around? I actually feel like the fights are harder this time around compared to previous expansions or is that just a decline in my skill?
I think perhaps what is bothering me is that this is the first end of expansion where I am the GM. Under my leadership the guild was unable to down the last boss of an expansion - is this the legacy I will be leaving behind?
Also, I don't want to raid without my guildies. I want to be with them when we kill something - and is going with other friends in other guilds going to look like an abandonment of my own guild? I think that inside it wouldn't feel right. It wouldn't be so bad on a flex or something but I think that it looks like I don't have faith in my own guild (even though we aren't killing it anyway since we're on a break.. but it's the principle!). I personally don't have any issues with my guildies going out to get their kills, but as GM I don't think I should be. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if we raided together with another guild, but I can imagine those with friends outside the guild would not want to do that - why would they want to raid with a bunch of strangers if you could go with your friends? I think that a kill would feel rather hollow to me without the presence of my officers, friends and guild raiders. The shared excitement of a kill that we worked towards is its own reward.
Years ago, many people wrote about how great if felt to kill Deathwing, at the end of Cataclysm. I yearn for that feeling with killing heroic Garrosh. And you know what's really embarrassing? I feel like I'm having a first world whinge. I shouldn't be complaining, really. There are many people out there who haven't killed heroic Garrosh. I don't know if the number of people killing an end boss at the end of this expansion is higher or lower than previously, and maybe that would give me a reference. But really, that doesn't matter. I just wanted to do it.
So, Brahski is going to sub in for Aza next week, Drauka is back so if everyone else turns up, we will have the full complement again. So, one week to get Paragons down. Or there will be some big decisions to be made.